Last night, my mom and I had a wonderful conversation. We were remembering some old songs we used to sing together at home. My favorite was and continues to be I'd Rather Have Jesus.
Christ gripped my thoughts again.
I began reflecting on my life. What is important to me? What drives me?
The truth is...I cannot live without Christ. Not only would my body reap horrible consequences of a life without him, but...who I am...the strengths and weakness that make up my way of living...would not be. I am driven to find him. I chase him until I feel him close.
A few nights ago at bedtime, Evan, my 4-year-old, said "Mommy, Jesus is invisible, but if you close your eyes you can see him." Soon after, Gideon, my 3-year-old , shut his eyes tight and said, " I am trying Mommy...I am trying so hard." I know Gideon will find Jesus. He will keep looking until he does.
Today, I close my eyes tight and look for Jesus. He is my sustanance. He offers me everything. With my eyes on what surrounds me I see anxiety...hopelessness...exhaustion...striving. With my eyes on my Creator, I see peace...hope...joy...contentment.
I'd rather have Jesus than anything...this world affords today.
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